Drive

My Resolution word is Drive. This year is going to be extremely busy and full of new experiences and good-byes. I'm going to need a lot of willpower and persistence to succeed and avoid a breakdown and Drive will remind me to not give up and continue my journey towards greatness. I also like its more literal meaning of driving a car. I'm finally 18, and by the summer of this year I will have the freedom to go places without parent restrictions. My dream has always been to take a road trip the summer before college and I want to make that dream come true. I want to go places, both literally and figuratively, and "Drive" is a word that will take me where I want to go.
I don't really harbor any strong envious feelings towards a person or situation. However, I have daily moments of jealousy where I see something I can't have or someone accomplish something I like and I think "I hate life" but quickly move on. It's a wide range of situations too, from seeing a car I like to hearing about someone get a higher grade than me. The envy is always spurred from someone being more succesful than me, but rather then waste my time complaing I usually use it as motivation to work harder.
All of my friends and family can confirm I am a horrible liar. However when I do lie it's about feelings. I hate showing sadness and vulnerability, and unlike other lies, lying about feelings is easy all you have to do is smile. I am an extremely cheerful person, and usually it's genuine, but when I am feeling sad, angry, or stressed my personal mantra is to smile and nod. I'm sure people can see through it sometimes, but it's still the thing I lie about most.